The infamous words.. I’m not sure it ever goes away in whatever it’s form but the last few weeks it has been exhasirbated in our house. I’m not sure if it was the mid term that set me off or the pure exhaustion of us all adjusting to the clocks going back but it started to get in on me. It seems to be a common theme amoungst mamas and parents alike, all in its own different deflating ways..
You know the usual routine.. Feel like you are not a good enough mother, wife, daughter, worker.. Never feeling like you are doing the best at any one thing. I so badly want to enjoy the good things but sometimes feel so exhausted those moments go by in a haze and then when Josh is being cranky it feels harder to handle and the guilt cycle sets off again!
We had a hectic but fun Halloween, for me it is about making memories for Josh and I think we certainly banked those. He lapped it up and loved trick or treating, could believe his luck getting jellies from every house and was thrilled by the fireworks, opposite to his mama who used to hide behind the couch at the bangs.
We start a new month today and a great part of the year with birthdays for all 3 of us and Christmas too, again memory making.. The important stuff! Get rid of the guilt and I’ll be doing just fine… Oh and some more sleep would be good 😉😴