Love for 2

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We are now a family of 4, 2 boys to love and bring us joy-how lucky are we. My first boy turns 3 tomorrow, my first love.

I always knew I wanted more than one child, being an only child I wanted Josh to have siblings. We feel blessed to be able to have brought Max into the world. 

I didn’t know how I’d feel about a second child, you will have read I felt guilt and sadness at saying goodbye to the special 3 years we had with Josh and wondered how I could love another mini human like I love Josh. I suspected you would probably love all your children but the love that came I was not anticipating. 

When Josh arrived, almost 3 years ago to the day, of course I loved him but it was a love that grew and was new and I had to understand. As the weeks and months went by and I got to know Josh and our new way of life the love grew more intensely and didn’t stop.

When Max arrived however the love was instant, I recognised this love and fell deeply. Having 2 days with him in hospital, in our little bubble was a time I will always remember. 

We then came home and we had two to love, both equally but just differently at first. Josh’s love was a familiar, slippers and pipe type of love. I’m proud of him everyday and whilst he is great with Max he has definitely been challenging us in recent weeks so lucky we love him as much as we do 😉 Max’s love is all squeaky and new, falling more deeply every day. I’ve felt guilty at times feeling differently towards them-equal but different but maybe that is normal. We are finding our new routine at the moment and I know it will all level out. Right now I just feel lucky to have 2 boys to love, 2 boys who love me and grow that love and admiration for them every single day. 

Tomorrow my Josh turns 3-he has made the last 3 years very special and now we continue our journey with Max in tow and the future seems exciting!

So for mums about to have two, yes it’s daunting but it’s pretty wonderful too! 

 

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