You know you might get those fleeting moments that you think ‘what would life be like without the responsibility of being a mum, wife etc’ and then you click back into reality. Well several hours with only my own company and a quiet house re affirmed how much I love the choices and way my life has played out. Yes the ‘rat race’ can be hard and doing it single handedly last week made it seem ever more so but my goodness with a few tweaks over time I wouldn’t want it any other way.
The night before I left for New York, Josh stayed with his granny as I had a 4.45am start and Ian was already in America with work so I was left on my own for the final preparations. It’s not like I haven’t been by myself before but this felt different somehow. Perhaps it was the added anxiety of being away from Josh for the longest time in 2 years or the recent terrorist activity but it definitely made me uneasy. I woke the next day ready to travel and already, without the holiday felt ready for the future.
On the day of our return I turned 33, never a better way to start a fresh outlook than a birthday and New York as the ability to make you believe anything is possible so as we head towards 2016 I hope I can keep this affirmation with me, whatever life may bring.
More on New York and some of our hot spots later this week..
It’s safe to say that is has been a weird couple of weeks but I am writing this post feeling a lot better than I have and so I can put the last little while behind me.
I returned from holidays feeling hopeful and focused but getting sick kind of scuppered that and then thrown into that a few changes in my life going on, very positive ones but changes all the same I let old anxieties creep in.
I felt old trigger points raise their nasty head, I had a constant knot in my tummy and the irrational side of my brain was in full force. I absolutely HATE feeling like that. It doesn’t happen often, in fact I can’t remember the last time but most of the time I think I’m am pretty ok, capable person but when this black cloud creeps in I absolutely am not!
Anyway I appreciate everyone has crappy times and for me I just had to ride through and thankfully I did. The light began this weekend, started off by a fab spa day with my mama pals in Rainforest Spa, Enniskerry. Next up was brunch with my girls, farm fun with Josh and then date night with my main man in Marco Pierre White. My mum took Josh on an overnight so plenty of rest and then a lovely family filled Sunday completed the road to re focus!
Sometimes it can be hard in life to realise and appreciate how lucky you are but always when I can reflect on feeling a bit low I realise it all the more. My life is my family, making them happy and secure is what is most important to me so with some priorities now on a list that is what I endeavour to continue to do.
This week has a giveaway on the blog so keep your eyes peeled!