new beginnings

Wonderful Weeks 💙💙

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It has been almost 2 weeks since we welcomed Max into our world. I have to say it’s been the most wonderful couple of weeks I can recall. Yes there have been challenges and a few  unexpecteds to contend with but the happiness he has brought into our lives far outweighs any of those.

It started with 2 days in hospital due to medical reasons, originally I wasn’t that keen but that 2 days of rest (not sleep I might add) was actually great. I got such special bonding time with Max whilst we both cuddled close on those long nights listening to the other babies cry. 


Leaving hospital felt like a new beginning of sorts and it was such a special day that I will always treasure. Having Josh and Ian come in to collect us was such a lovely memory and that day was filled with love and excitement.


The next few days of course were filled with lots of feeding, a few aches and pains and adjustment time for Josh with a lot of attention seeking but the bubble still remained and the happy hormones did their job. Not being in as much pain as the first time and knowing that sleepless nights etc were inevitable really helped and embracing it rather than fighting it made it all a little easier. 


My husband was an amazing support and I tried to just focus on becoming a family of four rather than constantly on to people or having lots of visitors that first week and that worked for us. It meant I got the feeding established and managed to get in some naps to make up for lost sleep. 

We did go and do some nice things as a family too and it was important when Josh was in school that my husband got time to bond with Max as well. 


By the end of the first week home and an odd experience with our new cleaner that had heightened my emotions-let’s just say she is no longer our cleaner and my bleeding increasing we did need to take a return visit to Holles St. I was checked over and thankfully all was ok and an explanation was given to why this might be happening. Due to my original blood loss it just meant a little more bed rest when I could but it was a relief to get the reassurance.

On the eve before a new month and it being Halloween we are spending it as a family, with ga ga included as she has had little or no time with Max due to work and got her first Josh night in a few weeks last night as their time together is important too.


I can’t express how lucky, thankful and happy I feel… this baby thing is addictive 😉 *as my husband runs the other direction! I love being a mama and this time I feel more able and strong than ever-long may is continue. 

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Living up to it!

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I was due to post this before Max was born and then he decided to arrive a week early.. More on that in a post on Wednesday when he will be one week old and what was meant to be his due date! The feature image is of my bump the night I went into labour-I had a sneaky suspicion it could be the last!

Anyway I think it’s funny and interesting being able to look back on musings before yet another life changing event. 

I am going to leave what I had written below but pick up at the end how perhaps, even though only a few short days have passed that with Max’s arrival I already have a slightly different perspective now! 


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We live in a society with social media and increased access knowledge that parents/parenting skills are constantly put under scrutiny and comparison. 

As a parent you will be judged, there is no getting away from that and as a first time mum you kind of just have to take it on and brush it off as you so wish. 

Ahead of having my second I am about enter another aspect of parenthood-being a mum of 2. It bring new joys and new challenges. I am one of the first of my peers to go on and have a second baby for now so hopefully I’ll have the ‘suss’ before they all follow suit, however right now that seems unlikely. 😕

I’ve done the newborn stuff, the working mama stuff, the staying at home stuff but recent weeks has been my biggest challenge with Josh’s sudden reaction to baby on the way, I’ll admit I haven’t coped very well. We have tried every route to no avail.  I try and generally be a positive person but this has broken me down. 

I hate moaning when I know how blessed I am… I also have lots of friends going through their own challenges to do with motherhood and other stuff. There are some first time mums adapting with sleepless nights along with complete life change and my own mum was a single parent to me and that is hard to compare to but heading into the world of number 2 seems quite daunting right now.

I want this to be a happy time and yes it’s exciting but it’s tinged with constant exhaustion and frustration like nothing like I’ve ever experienced. I am a social media sharer, like many others of today and try to show the balance of good and bad with my blog rather than the rose tinted view! We live in a world where we constantly question and scrutinise what we do/don’t do and this only adds to the pressure of life for some. 

We have had a bit of a road to get here and recent bumps have not been easy but as the saying goes.. this too shall pass! A new beginning is on the horizon, yes with further expected sleepless nights and endless feeding so I just hope I can live up to being a mum of 2! 

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So here I am a mum of 2, 6 days in and we are doing ok, more than ok. Yes I am completely sleep deprived, have boobs like pumpkins with razor blades attached but it’s the most mesmerising and magical time. It’s almost like you appreciate it all the more and lap up every moment second time round. Josh has adjusted well, I think it was the uncertainty that was bothering him. He loves his ‘baby brudda’-keeps saying ‘hi mister’ and was only asking today when we are having another baby-jeesh Josh give us a chance 🙈

I’m quite sure there will be busy, tricky, exhausting and challenging days ahead but knowing and expecting that helps. Reading back on the above I’m hoping that I’m actually going to be ok at this mum of two gig. Being a mum weirdly makes me more relaxed and further let go of ‘the crap’ and that can only be a good thing. I’ve taken more time to rest, unplug and focus on our new little family and this has been very beneficial too. 

Onwards and upwards for this Felton family of 4.